Thursday, May 12, 2011

I've Been Violated!!!

Ok, so maybe it isn't that bad BUT it's pretty fucking close!! FF has found out that I started posting here again! How??!? I'm not really sure. I sure as shit didn't tell him. He said something about being "notified" about it…?? Whatever the fuck that means. You know, I haven't even had the time to import any of my old posts yet. So what to do?? Do I change my www thing???!? Someone once told me that I ranted like Andy Rooney (whoever the fuck that is...???!?) and said that Green-Eyed Bitch suited me better than Green-Eyed Brat after reading ONE post. I'm kinda curious which post that was....??? However to be far to this cat, he did send a note later apologizing and saying that he understood my writing style. Which is baffling to me since I don't even understand my writing style or was even aware that I had one to begin with. Anyhow, I guess I could become the Green-Eyed Bitch...??? It does have a nice ring to it...? But I've tried to be something other than GEB before and it just never felt right. It felt like I was wearing someone else's underwear. And that just don’t feel right, yenno?!!?? So do I stop writing again??? If you don't know, THAT question is rhetorical. I really don't give a fuck if you want me to stop. Writing for me is therapeutic. Being brutally honest about how much FF punks me out and humiliates me sets my soul at ease. Anyone who has been in a fucked up relationship with someone who takes them for granted and is treated less than shit may understand that it's a cycle of purging, clearing out your head and making room for shit that's gonna motivate you for change....whatever that change might be. But why he feels compelled to read this is beyond me. You know it's not like I don't try to tell him how I feel CONSTANTLY. Do you think he listens when I try?? No! He would rather blow me off and then VIOLATE...yes Fuckface YOU ARE VIOLATING ME and not in the good "do that again" way, by reading my blog! I've asked you over and over again to NOT READ IT yet you do and then flaunt the fact that you do read it to me. You know, that's a total 'D' move. Not to mention your obvious TOTAL and BLANTANT lack of respect for me. You know this guy has a box of tapes in his closet and I have NEVER touched them. Am I dying to hear what's on them???? You bet your fucking ass I am but you see I have respect for this guy even though he has NONE for me. (Ironic statement seeing how I call him Fuckface, huh??) 

So I think the obvious answer is to lock this mofo down. Have it set where you have to be on my exclusive list of readers to access it. I know, I know...doing that is a total pain in the ass AND I'm pretty sure that I don't write anything that captivating to motivate you to go through the trouble BUT I can't feel censored by FF reading my shit. Besides I write for me, not for readers. And I've never been one to give a shit about popularity contests so why start now??!?

So if you're interested in reading my posts, and I don't blame you if you aren't, send me your email address via that box over there to the right labeled "Just Ask A Brat" and I'll add you to my list of approved readers. I'm gonna lock it down within the next week or two. 

Oh! And to you, Fuckface, if you really want to fucking know what's bothering me then man up and just fucking ask me. Thanks for ruining yet another aspect of my life. Nothing says "I love you" like fucking with my shit.


2 comments:

  1. So you are gonna let him dictate you life again? You do not have to censure a thing. Write what you want or feel you have to and let it lie. He can put on his big-boy panties if he wants to read what you say. Maybe take a fucking hint and either leave or change. Is he so dependent on you that he can't leave? If so, he is even more of a pussy. I say ship him off...life is to short and your are missing out on so much good stuff to have him ruin it.

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  2. Lord don't I know exactly how you feel! I purged mine though. Mine didn't give a shit about my blog until I gave the boot now he spends upwards of 6 hours a day reading and outclicking on people who comment to see where I am commenting and what I am saying. He went so far as to read my grief journal the one time I actually left it out and ripped pages from it. This was the journal in which I wrote letters to my sister who had just died suddenly...it was my way of coping through the grief process. He has no idea what respect is. WHO FUCKING DOES THAT?!

    I don't blame you for locking down. Everyone should have a safe unviolated place. PERIOD.

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